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May 02, 2005

Bank Holidays

I like weekends and Bank Holidays. That’s to say I like working at the weekend and on Bank Holidays. [Like Clement Freud – I don’t like holidays as such.]

Weekends and Bank Holidays are good not just because the phone doesn’t ring with inane pre-recorded voices telling me I’ve won a holiday for two on Mars, or slick salesmen trying to convince me to get the post delivered by the Gas Board.

Weekends and Bank Holidays are good because I feel I am allowed to do what I want, and what I want to do is paint and draw and make marks. During the week, on the workdays of the week, Monday to Friday, I feel pressure to “work”. To do that thing we were told we should do to earn a living.

Clearly all I have to do is value my mark making activities and re-classify it as “work” then I’d be more content, and more able to paint during the week without feeling guilty. But it’s not so simple. To value my art as “work” it needs the accepted rewards that work brings, that is: money. I feel perhaps if I was selling enough pictures to bring home the bacon and generally put shoes on the children’s feet, then I would be okay about painting on a Tuesday morning.

In the meantime I upset the family by working on a Bank Holiday – sometimes you just can’t win.

Posted by john at May 2, 2005 10:34 AM

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